Vermont College Mini-Reunion

Filed under: The Writing Life — Hari Bhajan at 1:36 pm on Tuesday, October 30, 2007

Saturday night, following a week when fires raged, Mercury was doing it’s retrograde thing and the moon shone full on it all, four Vermont College graduates of the Class of Fall, 2005, found a way to spend nearly an hour together trying to catch up on each other’s very creatively active lives. The catalyst was our New York City friend, Tamara, who came to town for the installation of her partner’s paintings in a local gallery. We had hoped to have a few more folks join us and to find more time to connect, but that wasn’t to be, so we did the best with what we were able to eke out.  Here’s who they are and what they’re up to…

Tamara:  Graphic artist (designed our graduation program), painter, collagist and altar maker (click HERE for website), blogger (HERE for blog) and lover of her pup, Bear. Of course this is only the short list. The exciting news is that Tamara will be leaving for Bern, Switzerland in January for a six month artist residency, where she will have the opportunity to visit fabulous museums and galleries, but most importantly focus solely on manifesting the brewing ideas and visions in her head. (The painting in the picture is by Chris, her partner. It’s Wonder Bread, in all it’s glory.)

Christine: Photographer (I have three of her photos from Romania hanging in my home in Oregon), painter and interior stylist. Christine’s also a mother of two and grandmother of three, who’s become quite the accomplished yogi and has plans to spend a few weeks in India at an ashram in the coming year. She just bought a new home in Mar Vista, remodeled it and set up a darling little art “shack” to work on all her projects.

Brit: One of a kind guy, Brit got his B.A. in “Popping,” a dance style akin to break dancing. He’s from Maine, but has been in L.A. for a few years (took some months to travel to Israel and Egypt after graduation). His mission is to get the whole world up and dancing—feeling the spirit of movement. His group is Elastic Illusion and they perform and make instructional videos.

 
Group Pic and the closest thing Vermont College will ever have to a cheerleading squad!! 

 

The Voice at 3 A.M./Charles Simic

Filed under: Poems & Poets — Hari Bhajan at 11:08 am on Sunday, October 21, 2007

In honor of our new Poet Laureate I went back to my Vermont College essays and pulled out this one on Charles Simic’s book of poems, The Voice at 3 A.M. I’ve also included one of my favorite poems of his at the conclusion.

Charles Simic is a complex man with complex thoughts. He possesses a large cache of memories from his childhood in Yugoslavia where he lived through the German and Allied bombings, as well as those as a young immigrant to the U.S. in the fifties and sixties. The chaotic and frightening circumstances of his childhood in combination with the educated and articulate adult he grew to be create poetry that combines tenderness and vulnerability with an often acerbic or pragmatic view of the world. Simic is not willing to allow one emotional force to rule his experiences, rather he gives himself permission to put on the page the very duplicity that haunts, as well as informs him.

 Simic’s poetry dwells frequently on the subject of death; how he observes its affect on people, contemplating his own, and the temporal nature of our soul inhabiting such a fragile vessel. He has seen much death from an early age and has respect, as well as an almost casual familiarity with the way it goes about its appointed task. In the poem “Death, The Philosopher” death is personified, is said to have an “unfortunate passion,” to love “the way the summer dusk fell” and to give “excellent advice by example.” In the last four lines Simic brings himself into the poem:

Miraculously lucid, you, too, came to ask
About the strangeness of it all.
Charles, you said,
How strange you should be here at all!

The sense I had when reading this poem is that there are so many mysteries in life and you can dwell on how dreadful it is, how confusing, and how there seems to be no way to “figure it out,” but in that truth is the strangest of all truths; the unfathomable miracle of your very existence.

Simic has a talent for stringing disparate images together in a poem to create a strong mood, whether it is playful, sensual or somber. One of my favorite lines in the selection is seen in these two stanzas from the poem, “Promises of Leniency and Forgiveness”:

…Someone rising to eloquence

After a funeral, or in the naked arms of a woman
Who has her head averted because she’s crying,
And doesn’t know why. A hairline fracture of the soul
Because of the way light falls on these bare trees and bushes.

Sea-blackened rocks inscrutable as chess players…
One spoke to them of words failing…
Of great works and little faith of blues in each bite of bread.
Above the clouds the firm No went on pacing.

These lines speak of the beauty of sorrow, of how we reach out in our awkward way to comfort each other in times of loss, even though we are inadequate to the task. The line that is most striking is “A hairline fracture of the soul…” It describes a moment of being caught off guard by a slant of light through the trees, or the scent of jasmine on a summer’s evening, or the cry of a child and how, in that instant the soul cracks open, reveals itself, and we are nothing but pure energy.

Although a good many of the poems in this collection (which are selections from 1986 to 2003) dwell on the dark and disturbing aspects of life in the 20th century and the struggle of an individual who has seen more than his share of pain and suffering, there are poems that touch the lighter side and those that exhibit a sweetness and serenity. “De Occulta Philosophia” is one of the latter, and perhaps my favorite poem in the book. Here the narrator speaks to the evening sunlight and “Seeks initiation / Into your occult ways.” There is humility in the voice of the speaker, who is in awe of the incredible majesty in such a display:

Tell me something of your study
Of lengthening shadows,
The blazing windowpanes
Where the soul is turned into light—
Or don’t just now.

The narrator exhibits a longing, a desire to touch the elusive quality of light, of shadow, of the quiet power in the setting sun. In the end the narrator realizes that he is but a mortal, “Seated in a shadowy back room / At the edge of a village,” and although he is given a certain knowledge in his experience of the sunset, he will forever be unable to understand such a profound phenomena in the way he craves.

One of the primary strengths in Simic’s poems is his ability to bring forth images that are both vivid and unusual. They reminded me of French or Italian art films, with the shadows and sharp edges of black and white photography and the sparse, poignant lines of the actors. He is a master at creating mood in his poems as seen in the first stanza of “Against Whatever it is That’s Encroaching:

Best of all is to be idle,
And especially on a Thursday,
And to sip wine while studying the light:
The way it ages, yellows, turns ashen
And then hesitates forever
On the threshold of the night
That could be bringing the first frost.     

Using the words “idle,” “ages,” “yellows,” “ashen,” and “hesitates” there is a strong sense of suspension of time, a slow motion, a remembrance, as if in a dream where all is seen as a movie, and the dreamer knows it is a dream. The melancholia sets up the next two stanzas where a young boy is watching a man (perhaps his father) with two “loose” women whispering and drinking together. We see this all as through a thin veil until the last lines, when the boy reveals his thoughts as he sees in all this revelry the conflicting emotions of one of the women:

The grown-ups raise their glasses to him,
The giddy-headed, red-haired woman
With eyes tightly shut,
As if she were about to cry or sing.

Above all I admire the honesty of Charles Simic’s poetry. There is not an iota of pretension. His poetry requires the reader to slow down and listen carefully to what he is saying to be able to go with him, but when you do (as I finally did), the originality of his perceptions and his sensitivity to human suffering is an enriching and emotionally fulfilling experience.

STONE

Go inside a stone
That would be my way.
Let somebody else become a dove
Or gnash with a tiger’s tooth.
I am happy to be a stone.

From the outside the stone is a riddle:
No one knows how to answer it.
Yet within, it must be cool and quiet
Even though a cow steps on it full weight,
Even though a child throws it in a river;
The stone sinks, slow, unperturbed
To the river bottom
Where the fishes come to knock on it
And listen.

I have seen sparks fly out
When two stones are rubbed,
So perhaps it is not dark inside after all;
Perhaps there is a moon shining
From somewhere, as though behind a hill—
Just enough light to make out
The strange writings, the star-charts
On the inner walls.

Poems in the Post

Filed under: The Writing Life — Hari Bhajan at 9:37 am on Thursday, October 18, 2007

For the first time in years I look forward to the mail dropping down the chute. There are more than bills, coupons and credit card solicitations coming in the mail these days. In the last three or four months I’ve been submitting my poems to journals—actually getting them out there into the world and seeing if they stick anywhere. I’ve taken the whole submission process on with vigor; setting up computer files containing documents on the submission guidelines of nearly 150 literary journals (gleaned from their web sites), two or three “cover letter” templates, folders with a copy of each poem submitted (hard copy and on computer), and the same for each journal submitted to, organized by date and alphabetically. There’s a bit of OCD in all of this, but it’s a way, I think, of keeping some emotional distance, of relegating this part of the poetic journey to the left side of the brain where it belongs.

When submitting work rejection is the norm, as all poets and writers know, and you’re doing well if you get one poem accepted out of a hundred submissions. This can be hard to take, unless you grow alligator skin or have a plan that keeps you in motion, preventing you from spending a whole lot of time hung up on why that editor didn’t like your poems or even worse, concluding that your work should all be thrown in the toilet and never see the light of day again. To me, it’s always about writing the poem, the experience of expression and awakening to an insight that wasn’t there yesterday. I figure if I spend a lot of vital emotional fluid moaning over what didn’t happened, then I won’t have the juice to create what’s waiting to happen.

Back to the mail—it’s those self-addressed-stamped-envelopes that I look for amongst the Lands End catalogues and electric bills; checking the return address to see which journal it’s from, sussing out from their thickness if there’s an iota of a chance that a poem got accepted, then taking a kitchen knife (most often I can’t wait long enough to get them to my desk to use the letter opener) and slitting the envelope open and most often pulling out the slip of colored paper or Xeroxed memo stating, ever-so-kindly, that the editor has read my submission “with interest” but has found that “it does not meet our present needs,” or the very generous “we wish you the best in finding a home for your manuscript elsewhere.” What provides a little dangling hope is when there’s an actual scrawled message on the rejection to, “send more” or “really enjoyed these” or an arrow pointing to one of the poems with “liked this one the best” written in the margin.

It’s all okay, the submitting, the rejections and the occasional acceptance. The latter, that rare and lovely moment when you open the envelope or receive an email that says Yes to one of your brave little poems—ah, that is a glow to revel in for a day or two, maybe even share with a couple of your closest friends and, if a particularly sought-after journal takes a poem or you get more than one poem accepted, then tell the spouse, being sure to alert him/her that, of course, this doesn’t mean you’ll be getting any money for your efforts, that it’s really all about creative satisfaction anyway.

It’s almost four and there’s no mail yet. The last couple of days a substitute carrier has had our route and it’s been here before noon. Today, it seems, our regular guy is on the job and it could be as late as 5 or 6 before he arrives. The tally so far this week is:  Monday, one submission out, three rejections in; Tuesday, nothing out, nothing in; Wednesday, three submissions out and nothing in. (The mail finally arrived.) The truth of it is that it’s all about perseverance, confidence (maybe not all the time) and a lotta, lotta luck.  And, in the final analysis, it’s really in the hands of those almighty and wise poetry gods. Now, it’s on to tomorrow and to forgetting about the results and focusing on the process. 

Back From Summer Vacation

Filed under: Musings, Poet on the Road — Hari Bhajan at 5:43 pm on Wednesday, October 3, 2007

This is the longest hiatus from P.E. I’ve ever taken. I haven’t felt inspired, been feeling more inward and, honestly, kind of tired of hearing what I have to say. That happens. I have been writing poetry. They occasionally float quietly in through the window. Other times they stomp up on the porch and bang on the door. Most of the time they just sit down with me for a little chat, to let me know there’s something they want to say, something I need to get busy writing about or I’ll wither away. The desire to write poetry is something I treasure, something that means that no matter how bad the world out there gets, that poetry still wants to live, wants to give voice to the depth of human sorrow and the beauty of the human soul.

I’m back in L.A. for the time being. The summer was spent bouncing up to Oregon several times, over to New Mexico, up to Napa and back to L.A. in between all of those trips. There were times when I found it difficult to ground myself, to connect with where home was for me. Instead of seeing the divine order of my life, I felt split in two, caught between, not only my two places of residence, but between who I was and who I am becoming. I wasn’t sure where I belonged.

It was on the drive down from Oregon after my last trip that a peace settled over me. I drove the 900 miles with only my two dogs as companions. It takes fifteen hours and I split it up into a day and a half-day. It’s always tough on the body, these road trips, but there’s something so liberating, something that gets freed up inside when you move through the countryside, stop at little towns and wayside stations along the way. By the time I pulled up in front of our house in L.A. I was joyfully exhausted. There was a certain amount of triumph in having gone the distance, but more than that was that somewhere along Hwy 97 or I-5, a peace had arrived, an understanding about where my true home is, where I will always belong—a place that will never have a mailing address or a weather forecast. I can’t really explain it. Like a good poem, peace is a mysterious force, some of which can be told, but most of which reaches down inside you and opens you to an inner truth, to grace.

Here are some photos taken in Oregon and on my way driving south.

 The "old bridge" over Crooked River Gorge between Redmond & Madras, Oregon

The train bridge over the gorge. When I was in high school my friends and I would come out and play chicken. Scared me then. Scares me now.

Closer look at the train bridge. It’s an amazing piece of engineering and beautiful to behold. Same goes for that husband of mine!

 
Here’s me being artistic with the photography.

Gotta interject a "bridge" poem that I fell in love with by a Polish Poet, Leopold Staff.

THE BRIDGE

I didn’t believe,
Standing on the bank of a river
Which was wide and swift,
That I would cross that bridge
Plaited from thin, fragile reeds
Fastened with bast.
I walked delicately as a butterfly
And heavily as an elephant,
I walked surely as a dancer
And wavered like a blind man.
I didn’t believe that I would cross that bridge,
And now that I am standing on the other side,
I don’t believe I crossed it.

Leopold Staff
Post-War Polish Poetry

Grass Lake just south of Mount Shasta. One of the most stunning and peaceful places. 

The story of Grass Lake. Maybe if you get a magnifying glass out you can read what it says.